Different

What is different?  We are all different.  We all have our own struggles whether we see it or not.  I may go to the store and see a happy cashier who I think is so sweet and she may go home and beat her children because of the stress she is under in life.  We may see someone who looks completely different but we are no better than anyone.

All our lived we've heard that we're "made in the image of god" which is a nice though and one that makes us remember our own value.  However there are many people who do not remember this especially around someone who is different.  I recently just was introduced to a young man who has some great opinions about being different and I would love to share the music video he has for his song.

Before you watch the video linked believe I would like you to close your eyes and imagine the following.  You are hungry and go into a restaurant.  After waiting to be seated for 30 minutes the manager comes to you and says "we don't serve your kind here!"  As you leave in anger, you hear people laughing and pointing at you.  You decide to walk home through the park and you decide to get a drink from a fountain.  You continue to see people judging you and making comments like "don't drink after that person.  Who knows what is wrong with them."  As your walking down the sidewalk you see people avoiding you like you have the plague or something.  Imagine how people have treated you and think about this...have you ever gave someone that thought?  Have you mistreated someone because of them being different?

Please enjoy this video.  Love to you all.

Cyndi Lauper - True Colors (MattyBRaps Cover ft Olivia Kay)

Today has been rather uneventful.  I had a fall this morning and have hurt my back with even more pain that before.  Another day I will go into all my illness' however today I just feel very defeated.  It hurts so much to sit, stand, walk, drive, lay down and so on and so forth.  It is days like this where i feel very gloomy and defeated, however I feel that tomorrow is a new day and will be better.  What is my purpose with enduring all this pain.  As I heal mentally I hurt physically and that becomes very overwhelming.  Uggg.

As I end for the day, I would like to leave you with a saying that I say every day!  I hope you all have a great night and remember that you are not alone in your fight through pain and suffering.  Love you all.

A little about me

To tell you a little about me...My name is Jessica and I am 33 years old.  I am the type of person who lives life as today is the last day.  Tomorrow is never promised.  I am single (again) as I am recently divorced (again...more on that later) and am preparing to start the new chapter of my life.  I am in the process of preparing to move with my sister, however the destination is not finalized yet, but I will let you know when I do.  :-)  I am disabled as I have many health problems but a few problems I suffer with every day that affects my life is my depression, anxiety and PTSD.  I use to be ashamed of how this affected my life, but I have become more open about how it affects me and hope that I am able to share more later with you on my daily struggles.  I am a pretty good listener and love to help others so if there is ever anything you would like to talk about, please feel free to let me know.

Welcome

Hello Cyber World.  Hope you are all well and thank you so much for stopping by.  My name is Jessica and I am from Elmira, New York.  I have decided to start a blog to help me share my thoughts and life with my friends and family and even strangers.  My hope for this blog is to be able to help others understand me a little better and to maybe even help someone that is struggling with a similar problem.  I hope you enjoy your visit and see you soon.